A lot has happened in the last few weeks. I was shocked and devastated that my dear friend Allie found out her cancer has returned. Needless to say, many MANY tears have been shed for her and her new fight. It has been so sad in our home these last few weeks with worry and concern for Allie and her family. Feeling angry and furious, I read what she has journaled on her blog. How wrong is it that
her words bring
me peace and help
my testimony in Christ grow? Even though I don't envy what she is going through, I envy her strength and clarity. She truly is amazing! If you would like to know more, her blog is at
www.caringbridge.com/visit/allisonarnett. Her family blog is at
http://www.arnett6.blogspot.com/.
Sooooo, I've been having pain off and on for a couple years in my hips, back, shoulder, neck, and spine. The last few blood tests have showed that I'm anemic and after supplements it actually got worse. I am also being treated for an under active thyroid which has a suspicious node. Well after what Allie is going through I thought I better get it all checked out. The burning pain has spread to my collarbone, hips, and arms. Add to that night sweats and shortness of breath and I am getting no sleep.
Off to the doctors to find out what is going on: I saw an orthopedic surgeon today. It turns out my symptoms are identical to those of someone who has cancer in the bones and I am getting a full body bone scan on Monday. I am crippled in fear with what the results will be and now am in complete and total awe of Allie. All I want to do is crawl in bed and sleep and avoid the world and yet I don't even have the diagnosis yet. The dr gave me painkillers and anti-inflammatories which haven't helped yet. It is pretty sad when I am praying that I have rheumatoid arthritis. Please keep Allie in your prayers and if you don't mind throw one my way too. :)
signed - a ball of stress
